自力更生12上班！
真正考驗開始了，要下鄉去辦計劃生育的普查工作，到雙渠公社，最遙遠的最艱苦的農村去，縣委特彆會議召開了，我被選中了。拿了縣委發的計劃生育登記本，換好零錢，糧票，在馬路上擋過往的拖拉機！老區的司機很好，都會停下車，不問你到哪裡去，隻是默默的開車，就像我早早買了票一樣！從保安到杏河，再等一個過路的車，過了許久，終於有一個手扶拖拉機來了，我爬上去，一路突突的聲音，震耳欲聾！
陝北的山路崎嶇蜿蜒，有一條路走著走著沒路了！我隻見到半山的紅沙石上有幾個小坑，那沙石好滑呀！一邊是懸崖，一邊是無路可走的山坡小坑！我望著那小坑，臉紅了起來！我一定要過去！我下定決心，想起過河的方法，快走裂石慢走橋！必須得快！我快快的衝了過去！
我過去了，我走過去了無路的山坡，我回過頭看了一眼那山坡，那懸崖，那小坑！我一輩子再也不會回到這條恐懼的小路的！
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多麼像我的人生，我的前途是沒有路的！
我沒了嗓子，不能唱戲，即使有了嗓子，可以唱戲，也因為時代的變遷，沒了戲曲的大舞台。
我的前進的路是斷了的山路！需要我有勇氣，衝過那懸崖邊的無路的小坑坑。要快，要快！
到了山村，婦女把紅顏料放到鍋裡，染了褲頭，表示沒有懷孕。她們給我做世界上最難吃的糠窩窩頭！我依然按照縣委的指示，每次吃飯要交四輛糧票，三毛錢！
有一天，回公社的時間晚了，半夜，走在山區的路上，隻有星星，山泉水的聲音相伴，沒了一絲恐懼，沒了一點的現實感，仿佛在夢境裡，隻是無限無限的孤獨！
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