e?e
e?o
ly?sta
s?a
d?the?u
d?of?ou
tai
s
i
g?a
d?ate
?the
e?as
o?fea
,
o?se
se?of
eality,?as?if?i
a?d
ea,?it?as?jt?i
fi
ite?lo
eli
ess!
回縣的日子，坐了一輛東方紅大型拖拉機，開心的心情被五月陝北的一場暴雨澆滅了，我躲在拖拉機的車底，雨像臉盆倒水一樣，雨點大的像乒乓球！雨小點了，冒著雨站在車上，任憑雨打風吹！坐車的人都淋了個落湯雞，從炮樓山下來，聽見一個聲音:回去洗個澡，換件衣服，美美睡一覺!我的淚水不覺就流了下來！這麼簡單的事我一個也做不到了！沒有家，縣城沒有澡堂，洗澡是沒辦法了，隻有一件衣服，還是師兄給的，換件衣服不可能了，今天要把劇團的房子推掉了，我已經被宣布離開劇團，到旦八鄉文化站去工作了！我無地自容！我在副食店買了一瓶最便宜的葡萄酒，獨自走向周河，拖著滿身的雨水，帶著就要離彆劇團的哀愁！躺在土坡旁，喝著人生的苦酒，留下無儘的淚水！
無家可歸，離彆養我的劇團，告彆縣城，八毛錢的卡車路費，我背起我的鋪蓋卷，就像一隻喪家犬一樣，逃到鄉下！
我去時，唯一買了一大堆書，鄉下的窯洞，有五口石窯，我住在第三個。巨大的猶如懸崖一樣的黑板，在旦八的十字路口，我要搭著梯子寫黑板報。長廊用白紙糊著，毛筆字懸空寫，一寫20米！
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the?day?of
etu
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g?to?the?u
ty,?i?took?a?
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ie
tal
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acto
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g?ate
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go
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ai
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d?let?the?i
d?blo!?all?the?asse
s?t?d
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ched?i
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g?do
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tai
,?they?hea
d?a?voice:??back?to?take?a?bath,?cha
?clothes,?have?a?od?slee!?y?tea
s?floed?do
u
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,?d
aggi
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all?ove
y?body,?ith?the?sad
ess?of?leavi
g?the?t
oue!?lyi
g?beside?the?sloe,?d
i
ki
g?the?bitte
i
e?of?life,?leavi
g?e
dless?tea
s!????????????holess,?fa
eell?to?y?t
oue,?fa
eell?to?the?u
ty,?80?ce
ts?of?t
uck?fa
e,?i?ca
y?
oll,?like?a?be
eaved?dog,?fled?to?the?u
t
yside!
我將從這裡起飛，飛往南方我的故鄉！我不知用什麼辦法，隻知道我一定可以做到！就像我那天寫的詩句
我要走了
去到太陽直射的地方，
去到人民勤勞的土地，
用筆書寫夢想，
用夢想激勵活著，
用活著表現堅強！
用堅強守望南方！
i?ill?fly?f
o?he
e?to?y?hoto
i
the?uth!?i?do
t?k
ohat?to?do,?jt?k
o?i?ca
do?it!?like?the?oe?i?
ote?that?day:????????????i?ao?????????????he
e?the?su
is?di
ect,????????????to?the?ha
do
ki
g?
d?of?the?eole,????????????
ite?d
eas?ith?a?e
,????????????live?ith?d
eas,????????????live?to?be?st
o
g!????????????atch?the?uth?ith?st
e
h!